Well, the news it out and I could not be any happier!! Last year on November 30th to be exact, Fred and I found out that we were expecting our first little bundle of joy. Initially, I thought I was sick due to the medicine I was taking, but that was not the case. We all know I LOVE food, so when I was not able to eat anything or keep anything down and then I started crying because I was hungry, I knew something was up. To clear my conscious, I decided to take a pregnancy test or 5 haha. I picked up some tests from the Dollar Store and then some from Target just to have options hahah! When I read the 3 pregnancy tests, I literally had no idea how I felt, I was literally stuck. Then, all of the emotions hit me at once and the only thing I could think of was that I hadn’t graduated college yet lmao! We had always planned to be engaged when I’m 23, get married after I graduate, and then have our first baby. That is when the Lord came right on in and was like “nahh, I have a better plan for you” and he definitely did.
When I found out I was pregnant, I was feeling super lost with what path I needed and wanted to take in life. I was having major conflicts at my old job that took a major emotional and mental toll on my life, I was at the point where I literally did not want to finish school even though I will literally only have 9 hours to go after this Spring semester, and I honestly just wanted to give up. I feel like the Lord knew that I needed something to help me keep on pushing and keep on going and that was the exact moment I found out that Baby Bean was cooking in my belly! After the initial emotions wore off and after I took two more pregnancy tests lol, I was honestly excited because I have always wanted to be a momma. I am an aunt to nine beautiful babies (even though they aren’t babies anymore) and it has always been one of the biggest highlights of my life. But now, I get to raise my own little Baby Bean and my heart is filled with joy.
The moment I found out about Baby Bean, my entire thought process changed. I became more than motivated to make sure that I finish this degree here at UT Dallas, I started looking for a better job with a less toxic environment, and I wanted to make sure that I took my blogging game to the next level so that I could be home and enjoy all of the moments that Baby Bean will have when he or she arrives from the house. After I found out, I made an appointment to see my doctor and we had scheduled my sonogram for December 18th! It felt like the days were seriously going by so slow because I was sooo excited to see our Baby Bean for the very first time. December 18th finally arrived and Fred and I got to see our healthy Baby Bean for the first time. We also saw Bean’s heart pumping with a heart rate of 170 and I was pumped. I literally could not stop smiling! To see Bean’s heart thumping and to see him or her growing in my belly just made it all so real and made me even more excited! So after, I went back to work, ate some Taco Bell (don’t judge me lol) and that was when it hit me that the Lord truly does have our best interests in mind 24/7 because he gave me a way out of my toxic job and I could not be happier. I was now able to breathe, be stress-free, and now grow Baby Bean in a non-toxic environment with support from the most important people in my life.
After that moment, I was truly excited to just provide the best life possible for our whittle baby and also to move into a bigger space that would allow us to give Bean his or her own room. I went crazy at Target on my registry and even had my notes full of questions to ask my doctor! I am currently 14 weeks pregnant today and Baby Bean is the size of a lemon!! I am so excited because on February 3rd, we will find out if we are having a boy or a girl! Fred and I are hoping and praying for a healthy baby boy simply because I would be so scared to raise a little me lmao! All in all, I just pray that Baby Griffin is healthy because he or she is going to be so loved by so many people. I am so pumped for this gender reveal that my bestie Kiki B. is throwing us because I know it will be more than amazing! Don’t worry, I will be taking pictures and I will most definitely share all of the details and all of the good stuff that comes along with the gender reveal.
That is all I have for this blog, but just know I will be sharing more blogs about my pregnancy along the way! Thank you so much for all of the love and support so far, it means the World to us. Anywho, I will see you all tomorrow for a new recipe, so make sure that you subscribe so you never miss a beat! Talk to you tomorrow!