Hey y’all! So today’s blog post is one that I have been wanting to do for awhile now, but I literally didn’t have a clue on how to start it. Not much has changed, but I decided I might as well give my truth now so that I can finally close the door on that part of my life.
If you are friends with me on facebook, then you already know that I was apart of an MLM and by the facebook memories that are now haunting me, I was CONSTANTLY sharing something about this brand. I joined the company because as a college student who was already working full time, I literally did not have the time to get another job. I found this MLM and decided to join it because after I was scammed out of thousands of dollars, I literally had nothing to lose.
I joined the company and literally RAN with it. I was excited because I felt like I found a place where I actually fit in, I was able to help other reach their goals, and it help me get out of my comfort zone. I was literally so into it that I wanted to do this forever. Like quit my 9-5 and do this full time, so I worked hard to make it happen. I promoted twice and got charted for some pretty big promotions, but I truly never saw the promotion gain in my check. That alone was discouraging because I was literally busting my butt and literally felt like I got nowhere with it. With MLM, you’re always working to build your team and your customer base and if you aren’t truly in love with what you’re doing, then it can become more than frustrating to try and constantly build something you’re not passionate about.
I was obviously not ready to face the fact that maybe I had outgrown this chapter in my life, so I kept working hard to achieve my main goal. During this time, I started to feel really unhappy and like I was forcing everything, but I also thought that maybe I was just in a funk since I had just lost my Mammaw. With everything going on I knew conference could change the game for me, so I made my way to Tampa, Florida to attend. I was really excited to be away with some of my close girlfriends, but as soon as we got into the hotel room I realized how over the whole thing I truly was. I didn’t want to just not enjoy my trip, so I kept on saying that maybe attending conference will change my mindset and everything would be good again. I had talked to Hannah and Mel and told them how I was feeling like this conference was make it or break it and they understood, which was a huge relief.
You’re probably like why do you care what they thought of your decision, but that wasn’t what it was about. Since I was apart of an MLM for almost two years, I already knew that once you stop working that business that all of those friendships you have made are ultimately ended right then and there. It’s sad to hear, but it’s the truth. Although I had informed them that I wasn’t really feeling it, I kept an open mind because maybe the actual event could change my mind. It obviously didn’t change my mind, if anything it kind of made me realize that this was the end and it was time to start working on MY brand and not someone else’s. Yes, you are an independent distributor when you sign up, but at the end of the day you still have someone cutting your check and taking a percentage of what you worked for and no one wants that.
I’m going to be honest when I say that I wasn’t completely done with this journey until probably last month or so when I realized that I had been kicked off the “team” page. I had still been talking to people via messages and word of mouth when I was removed from the page, I just hadn’t been promoting it on my insta or facebook feed. It’s not that big of a deal, but when your team leader always claims to never delete anyone off the team page until they deactivate their account or until they switch to another MLM, it kind of irked my soul to see that I had been removed even though I LITERALLY just renewed my account May or June of this year and I was still working. I am being 100% honest when I said I wasn’t done then, but knowing I was kicked off because I literally created my own brand and found a way to do what I was passionate about made me realize that I had 110% outgrown this journey and some of the people as well.
I no longer had the patience for people claiming they cared about their team and trashing them in the next text, I no longer had the patience to watch someone literally tear others down as “motivation” because their team didn’t do as well as they did the month before aka their pay was not the same as the month before, and I definitely didn’t have the heart to watch others portray a lifestyle that they already admitted to not being able to afford any longer. Not only that, but I felt like I couldn’t post what I was really doing in my real job because it could somehow “shade” my side hustle, but that was never actually the case. I should’ve NEVER felt like I had to hide my real 9-5 job, but somehow I always did.
On another note, I felt like the company that once stood for getting others out of debt and helping them become a better them turned into a competition on who could pretend to be living their best life when they truly weren’t. Of course you don’t realize any of this when you’re first starting out, but as time goes on you really start to see how toxic it is. No one should ever have to hide how they are feeling because “no one cares” or because it could run away potential customers. Like that is so toxic and more than draining to have to always portray a happy life when in reality no person has a perfect life. It’s common sense that everyone goes through bad times in life and not everyone can always be happy, so for people to feel like they can’t be open with how they truly feel is sad. When I first started it was nothing like this, so to see how it is now is a bit disheartening.
Although this chapter in my life is officially over, I don’t regret it one bit. For one thing, my mindset changed for the better and it has been an entire blessing! There is literally no more room for negativity over this way lol. Not only did I fix my mindset, but I gained the confidence that I never had and I finally found a way to be able to share who I truly am. I never would’ve thought in a million years that I would be a legit business owner, but I was able to use the marketing techniques and just knowledge of a small business to create Simply Madisynn LLC. I have been able to create my blog and get active and returning visitors to my blog, I will be opening up my first store here really soon, and I will be able to say that I created my own legacy from the ground up in a few years. I was also able to take my editing skills from phone apps and translate what I knew into photoshop to help to my business and other businesses to a different level which is something I probably would’ve never known how to do if I had never edited all the things I edited over the past two years (even though it was rough back then hahah). I also have about six amazing friends that I did get out of this journey that have literally been by my side through the whole journey and I am forever grateful for y’all. You could definitely say I had a lot of lessons and blessings throughout this whole thing and that is what makes it worth it to me.
I just want y’all to know that literally every single lesson and season that you face in your life will have a greater picture, but it’s up to you to figure out what the true meaning is. I may have never intended for my journey to end how it did, but I am forever grateful for all that it has taught me. This journey has literally changed my life in more ways than one and I hope whoever is going through something similar makes the best out of the situation. You deserve everything you want and more, so do not limit yourself to something that could potentially be temporary. You are worthy and those that are for you will fully support you no matter what it is that you want to do, so go out there and make a difference because you will be so much happier when you do.
Thank you so much for listening to my story and feel free to share with others. I know how it feels first hand to be afraid of something you worked so hard at for years, but sometimes it is what is necessary to ensure you are 100% happy. I also want to point out that this blog post is based solely on my experience as a distributor with this company and my feelings towards it all after the journey is over. Thank you so much for listening to my half and I hope y’all have an amazing night!